Todays music

Currently playlist:

Neutral Milk Hotel - In the Aeroplane Over the Sea

Port Blue - The Airship

The Postal Service - Give Up

Bon Iver - Bon Iver, Bon Iver

And thats about it really!

PS. Just started up an album review website --> www.itaots.com (Named after the fantastic album at the top of my current playlist :))

Escape

Escape

Further down into the addiction

Lose the feeling

Lose the pain

You'll never get out of this alive

The final drop

Will be just as sweet

The final beat

Just as hard

Escape

Into the depths of the misery

Of the ones who were here before

Leave your own mark

You thought'd you'd get out

Just before the end

Before it engulfed you

But you didn't

Sit

Listen

Nothing?

That's the answer

TW -6/6/11

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A delusion of senses

Dissociation and derealization

Not quite euphoria

But very close

Step back from the front and seek out what you shouldn't

It'll all be black in the end

TW - 5/6/2010

Unfinished Blogs

I currently have around 40 unpublished blogs...

Why do I chose not to post them? Is it simply a matter of perfection (as is evident by my other posts.....)? Obviously not.

I don't like posting about something I am uncertain about, I start to write about something and then think about it more and doubt myself. I even publish, sleep on it and retract. Surely I should put my ideas out there to be discussed (by the millions that check my blog)! I write constantly, anything good goes into the draft of my book - the other thoughts end up on google servers, unpublished for the world to miss out on. I'm going to go through my unpublished blogs and reconsider.

Stay tuned..

And for those bored enough to continue:

Currently Reading: The Extended Phenotype - Dawkins/ Revolutionary Road - Yates / The Dark Tower - Book 4 - King
Currently Listening: The Doors / Leonard Cohen / nine inch nails
Currently Watching: Life / Prison Break S4 / House S4 / Numerous Doco's and various youtube crap

Confusion

"Confusion, Confusion, all my world's a bright delusion, all my life's a torn circus, all my mind comes tumbling down."

I feel scattered, not unsure, but scaterred. Cohesive thought is not forthcoming at the moment, no doubt due to my exhaustion from work. I long to be in America. It, for me, holds the key to dreams that seem unattainable in Australia. I'm not even sure what they are, but I know that they are not attainable here.

"No one here get's out alive"!

Lyrics, poetry, songs i've heard a hundred times and never really understood are now clear, the message, if there is one, is coming through loud and clear. It's extremely odd, i'm not sure how it's come about, but it has.

...

And on another topic...

How foolish are people, to think that they will live forever in some form. All logic points to the true answer yet there is some mental block that stops most people from admitting to themselves the truth of matter. No one here gets out alive. There is no soul, there is no spirit. We are humans, we are born and then we die. Sometimes we expire other times we are terminated. The fact still remains, when you're dead, you're dead. There's no heaven, there's no hell. You're not going to be sitting on jesus's lap up in heaven nor are you going to be burnt by the devil. Be true to yourself and admit this fact now. Start living, start taking charge, live for now! Never do anything that you regret, don't miss out on once in a lifetime chances. I have but a few regrets so far in my life, I don't intend to add to this list ever again.

We want the world and we want it.... now, now? now!

.....

Cancel my subscription to the Resurrection
Send my credentials to the house of detention
I got some friends inside

The face in the mirror won't stop
The girl in the window won't drop
A feast of friends
"Alive", she cried
Waiting for me
Outside

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When the music's over, turn out the light's

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“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” Jim Morrison

“That's what real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act-” again... Jim Morrison

Voice of reason

"If a person breaks into your home, you are justified in using deadly force in defending your family," said Mount. "In this situation, I don't think he was trying to kill him, he was trying to hold him down."

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,429503,00.html

If this had happened in Australia he would be off to jail. Our laws need to change, the sooner the better!